Remember those nights back in high school or college when you had a huge test the next morning in a class you had perhaps (or absolutely) blown off too frequently?
Remember how you’d lay in bed, trying desperately to keep up as the flashcards of facts and figures flitted through your brain, muddied up by your list of “to do”s which were at the periphery of your mind until this perfect opportunity for distraction?
I do too.
This is the night when it hit me.
On Thursday, I will be driving to Anchorage with a guitar, two suitcases, and a one-way plane ticket to Minneapolis. After three wonderful years, I will be returning to Minnesota to explore a call as the Director of Children, Youth, and Family Ministry at Elk River Lutheran Church in [you guessed it] Elk River, Minnesota.
The cocktail of emotions is a bit overwhelming, too. I have never been in this type of situation. I am absolutely excited to be with the children, youth, parents, families, and community of Elk River. But I am devastated and weeping inside (and sometimes outside) about leaving these people whom I love so dearly in Wasilla.
That being said, I want to share two songs with you, both of which have been on repeat for a few weeks in my life; words bouncing around inside my skull and sometimes leaking down into my heart. In many ways, “Caledonia” by Dougie Maclean and “This is Not the End” by Gungor are narrating exactly how I’m feeling about leaving this place and these people.
“This is not the end; this is not the end of this
We will open our eyes wider.
And you know you’ll be alright.”
Thanks be to God.
Stay safe, and be good to each other.